i'm a silly, silly girl.

i worry a whole lot. about school, about ap tests, about people, about faith, about other people's faith, about the play, about getting enough sleep and exercise, about spending time with God, about spending time with just me, and on and on and on...and it's all really silly. i cannot control other people and i cannot count on my plans.

so i was in my room last night stretching and listening to music and enjoying the candles and God was just like...you don't have to worry! i'm so much bigger than all of this and i'm taking care of you...and you're going to be alright if you just let me handle it all. and i have to do that. it's a whole lot easier said than done...and i really don't like being in situations where i can't do anything...but i guess i'll have to just get over that. and stop waiting for things to all be completely ok and comfortable because they never will be.

i used to see the world in black and white
now i find myself lost in a fog of grey
i thought the good guys always won the fight
but i've learned life simply doesn't work that way
i once believed if i loved others
they would love me too
but i've seen that isn't always so
i thought that inner peace would come from trusting who i am
but it's really about trusting who i know

so when the winds of change try to blow me over
and the shadows of confusion hide the truth
i will hope in the One who is forever
i will run to You
i will run to You

ever since the moment life began
humankind has tried to solve its mysteries
so many things we cannot comprehend
so we draw conclusions that we can believe
well, i know that Your hands have placed the earth upon the seas
and pitched a tent in the heavens for the sun
the Author of the universe is the Father who loves me
so only one conclusion can be drawn

when the winds of change try to blow me over
and the shadows of confusion hide the truth
i will hope in the One who is forever
i will run to You
i will run to You

when i face the questions that seem to have no answers
and i know my friends are but a precious few
i will hope in the love that never changes
i will run to You

though the perils of life seem so great
and hope seems so frail
You never fail, no
shadows may not disappear
but You've always made it clear
truth will prevail
You will prevail

so when the winds of change try to blow me over
and the shadows of confusion hide the truth
i will hope in the One who is forever
i will run to You
i will run to You