does anyone else have art next semester?

the beach was...cold. except the last day--it was super nice...and warm and seagull-y and i learned to crochet! it takes forever, but it's pretty easy. my grandma sent me this:

"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his/her fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone.
Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself, and the other for helping others."
~Audrey Hepburn

and i just realized that after trying on clothes in the mall...my shirt was put back on inside out. oops. =)

i've officially spent an entire week cleaning all of the weird stuff out of my room.

it was a lovely christmas.

this year was so different--the last time we stayed home was when i was 1! so waking up in my own bed was really weird...but we made breakfast...real breakfast! my family usually just grabs granola bars on the way out the door...but i made pancakes =) and then we went to see the polar express (the effects in it were amazing)...and then we had christmas with my nana. it was a really relaxed and peaceful day.

cleaning out my room and going through old memories and meaningful objects (both positive and negative) really made me think a lot about what i like and don't like. i made a list of the things that i've decided i really, really like:

• candles


• simplicity


• me (shocker--i think i may have finally learned)


• contentment


• the velveteen rabbit


• quiet


• vintage metal canisters


• scarves


• chocolate


• flowers


• butterflies


• black and white


• my sister (another shocker)

and i read proverbs 31 again last night. that's the passage about the virtuous wife--it's really...something i aspire to. i guess i was really in a list-making mood b/c i made another list...here's what God says a virtuous wife is like:

• worth more than rubies                                


• trustworthy


• full of good works


• loyal


• talented


• selfless


• innovative


• intelligent


• a night owl =)


• generous


• humble


• confident


• elegant


• thrifty


• strong


• honorable


• joyful


• wise


• kind


• productive


• blessed


• God-loving =)

this is long enough. i hope you've had a wonderful christmas--and if not, that next year will be.

this weekend...

it was ____________.   pick one:

• tiring


• exciting


• dreamy


• lethargic


• happy


• fun


• useful


• rushed


• playful


• silly


• sleepy

i feel like
i would like
to be somewhere else doing something that matters
and i’ll admit here
while I sit here
my mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather
what’s the purpose
it feels worthless
so unwanted
like i’ve lost all my value
i can’t find it
not in the least bit
and i’m just scared--so scared that i’ll fail you

and sometimes i think that i’m not any good at all
and sometimes i wonder why
why i’m even here at all
But then You assure me
i’m a little more than useless
and when i think that i can’t do this
You promise me that i’ll get through this
and do something right
do something right for once.

fca went christmas caroling tonight and then to katie & christie's for pizza and yummy dessert things. mmm....

is it bad that i don't understand the whole "getting into the christmas spirit" thing? i like giving presesnts and wrapping presents and seeing people smile...and i really really like hot chocolate...but i don't like cold weather and i don't like the selfishness and stuff-mindset that goes along with the typical american christmas...and i really really don't like christmas colors. i like green...but red is such an angry color...even if my grandma says it looks good on me. i think they look really ridiculous and gaudy together. ew.


"God bless you and keep you, God smile on you and gift you, God look you full in the face and make you prosper."
--Numbers 6:24-26

however many months later she returns.

we took Laura out for her birthday tonight. we went to maria's and then to see Ocean's 12...both of which were very good. it's so nice to be able to drive when i want with as many folks as i want...and I really want to get to know Laura better--nifty kid.

while i was driving everyone home i remembered how absolutely permeated i am with opinions (of which not all are well backed up i admit) and i kept ranting about all of these different things (problems with authority figures, the 50s housewife mindset, etc.). i hope that i didn't irk anyone...i haven't gone off about things like that in a while...

have i mentioned just how glad i am that this semester is almost over?