me, i tremble like a hill on a fault line

i like the mountains oh-so-much....

the ballet company was...great with more modern things, but not-so-great with traditional things. however, i don't like traditional ballet to start with, so i was biased against that part to start with.

it rained. a lot. and the tents were pretty disgusting by the end of the weekend...but it was fun. we camped all the time when i was little, but we hadn't in a while. i had really missed it. 

and you know what i've decided? dating is really screwed up and i don't like it. why do people always end up hurting each other? i don't know about anyone else, but i sure don't enjoy being ripped to shreds by people i care about....

i guess this is where i am at the moment.

tuxedo in the closet, gold band in a box
two days from the altar she went and
called the whole thing off
what he thought he wanted
what he got instead
leaves him broken and grateful

i passed understanding a long, long time ago
and the simple home of systems
and answers we all know
what I thought I wanted
what I got instead
leaves me broken and somehow peaceful

i keep wanting You to be fair
but that’s not what You said
i want certain answers to these prayers
but that’s not what You said

when I get to heaven I’m gonna go find Job
i want to ask a few hard questions
i  want to know what he knows
about what it is he wanted and what he got instead
how to be broken and faithful

i keep wanting You to be fair
but that’s not what You said
i want certain answers to these prayers
but that’s not what You said

staring in the water like Aesop's foolish dog
i can’t help but reflect on what it was I almost lost
what it was I wanted
what I got instead
leaves me broken and grateful
~"what i thought i wanted" by sara groves