Sunday, January 30, 2005

this is super awesome...

"One word, Ma'am," he said, coming from the fire; limping, because of the pain.
"One word. All you've been saying is quite right, I shouldn't wonder. I'm a chap who always liked to know the worst and then put the best face I can on it. So I won't deny any of what you said. But there's one thing more to be said, even so. Suppose we have only dreamed, or made up, all those things--trees and grass and sun and moon and stars and Aslan himself. Suppose we have. Then all I can say is that, in that case, the made up things seem a good deal more important than the real ones. Suppose this black pit of a kingdom of yours is the only world. Well, it strikes me as a pretty poor one. And that's just a funny thing, when you come to think of it. We're just babies making up a game, if you are right. But four babies playing a game can make a play-world which licks your real world hollow. That's why I'm going to stand by the play-world. I'm on Aslan's side even if there isn't any Aslan to lead it. I'm going to live as like a Narnian as I can even if there isn't any Narnia. So, thanking you kindly for our supper, if these two gentleman and the young lady are ready, we're leaving your court at once and setting out in the dark to spend our lives looking for Overland. Not that our lives will be very long, I should think; but that's small loss if the world's as dull a place as you say."


- Puddleglum, the Marshwiggle. Excerpt from "The Silver Chair" book 4 in the Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis.





i'm definitely not going to make it through this semester on my own...good thing i don't have to.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

is anyone else going into homework overload?

symptoms:
*dizziness
*sleepyness (even after 8-10 hours of sleep and naps)
*feeling blank
*inability to concentrate
*worry
*forgetting to eat
*wanting to take a "nervous breakdown" break
etc, etc....

Sunday, January 23, 2005

since most of the churches were closed...

here's my version.


when you were born, you were completely unwanted. nobody cared enough to give you a bath, to give you a soft blanket to sleep on, to give you good things to eat. you were discarded and left in the middle of the road to die. not knowing what to do or how to live, you flailed around in the pain of a broken heart and the blood of your past.
and then God walked by. he saw you and immediately loved you, wanted to rock you in his arms and take care of you. he said, "it's okay. you don't have to cry--come here and let's get you all cleaned up." so you followed him and you grew up into a beautiful young woman. because you were still young and fragile, God spent lots of time taking care of you and always listened when you had a question or anything to say. he gave you a new dress and jewelry and even a crown to show everyone how proud he was of you. "you were provided with everything precious and beautiful...you were absolutely stunning." people all over the world found out how wonderful you were.
but you began to let the praise go to your head. willingly, you turned away from the father who had given so much in his love for you. you threw everything away for a few nights of pleasure, defiled the beautiful gifts and defiled yourself. you threw yourself at all kinds of men and threw the resulting children into the fire as a sacrifice to other gods. God was heartbroken. All of your actions made him angry and he had to punish you with the reputation you had earned. Still, he remembered you as an innocent young girl he said, "you'll remember your sorry past...you'll remember your past life and face the shame of it, but when I make [amends] for you, make everything right after all you've done, it will leave you speechless."


i love how it doesn't matter how far she runs away...that there's always a home to come back to and a deep love that is completely unshakable. and it definitely has left me speechless.



it's definitely one of my favorite passages of the bible. it's in the message version here:
http://bible.crosswalk.com/OnlineStudyBible/bible.cgi?word=Ezekiel+16%3A4-63§ion=0&version=msg&new=1&oq=&NavBook=eze&NavGo=16&NavCurrentChapter=16


and this is one of the best songs i've heard in a while...it's by Caedmon's Call and it's called "Mystery of Mercy"
i am the woman at the well
i am the harlot
i am the scattered seed that fell along the path
i am the son that ran away
And i am the bitter son that stayed


my God, my God
why hast thou accepted me?
when all my love was vinegar
to a thirsty King
my God, my God
why hast though accepted me?
it's a mystery of mercy and the song
the song I sing


i am the angry man who came to stone the lover
i am the woman there ashamed before the crowd
i am the leper that gave thanks
yet i am the nine that never came


my God, my God
why hast thou accepted me?
when all my love was vinegar
to a thirsty King
my God, my God
why hast though accepted me?
it's a mystery of mercy and the song
the song I sing


You made the seed that made the tree
That made the cross that saved me
You gave me hope when there was none
You gave me only your Son


my God, Lord you are
my God, my God, Lord you are...

Friday, January 21, 2005

potbellied pigs are funny. =)

Sunday, January 16, 2005

life is good when jesus comes to town.

...sigh...

Friday, January 14, 2005

sometimes it's embarrassing
to talk to You
to hold a conversation with
the only one who sees right through
this version of myself i try to hide behind
i'll bury my face
because my disgrace will leave me terrified

and sometimes i'm so thankful for Your loyalty
You love regardless of
the mistakes i make will spoil me

my confidence is, in a sense, a gift you've given me
and i'm satisfied to realize You're all i'll ever need

You looked into my life and never stopped
and You're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple
but so beautiful

and You recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
You let me know
i am understood

and sometimes i spend my time
just trying to escape

i work so hard so desperately
in an attempt to create space
cause i want distance
from the utmost important thing i know
i see your love
then turn my back
and beg for you to go

You looked into my life and never stopped
and You're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple
but so beautiful
and You recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
You let me know
i am understood

You're the only one
who understands completely
You're the only one who knows me
yet still loves completely


and sometimes the place i'm at
is at a loss for words
if i think of something worthy
i know that its already Yours
and through the times i've faded and You've outlined me again
You've just patiently waited
to bring me back and then


You looked into my life and never stopped
and You're thinking all my thoughts
are so simple
but so beautiful
and You recite my words right back to me
before i even speak
You let me know
i am understood

the noise has broken my defense
let me embrace salvation....

Monday, January 3, 2005

not exactly a resolution

now and then these feet just take to wandering
now and then i prop them up at home
sometimes i think about the consequences
sometimes i don't

well, i realize that falling down ain't graceful
but i thank the Lord that falling's full of grace
sometimes i take my eyes off Jesus
and you know that's all it takes

well, i wish that i could say
that at the close of every day 
i was happy with the way that i'm behaving
'cause Job, he chased an answer
the wise men chased the Child
Jacob chased her fourteen years
and he captured Rachel's smile
and Moses chased the Promised Land
Joseph chased a dream
David, he chased God's own heart
All I ever seem to chase is me


well, they say a race can only have one winner
and you know you've got to pull out front to win
God knows the only time i'm winning
is when i'm chasing Him

so, i wish that i could say that at the close of every day 
i was happy with the way that i'm behaving
'cause Samson chased a woman
and he chased the Phillistines
i'm not quite sure what Jonah chased
but i know he caught the sea
and Cain, he chased the harvest
while Abel chased the beasts
David, he chased God's own heart
all i ever seem to chase is me

and Jesus chased the money men
and He chased His Father's will
He chased my sin to Calvary
and He caught it on that hill
and Saul, he chased the Christians
'til his blindness made him see

David, he chased God's own heart
all I ever seem to chase is me


 


this semester, i want to chase after God's own heart like David did. i really like him, because he was constantly messing up but he loved God and had a really super-special relationship with Him...he was also a dancer. =)


 

i love this guy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

his name is Brian Andreas and he's wonderful. check out his art here:
http://www.shopatartworks.com/productdetail.asp?id=stp0016&mcid=36&scid=56&pageno=4



"Most people don't know there are angels whose only job is to make sure you don't get too comfortable & fall asleep & miss your life."
--brian andreas