tey-has!

i'm back. and blank is exactly what i feel. i love feeling this way though, b/c i don't have to worry about anything, i can just be and be quiet and content and...peaceful. i'm usually so moody or worried or even overly excited...quiet is nice.

the trip was definitely not at all like i expected. God stretched me a whole lot more than i would have liked, but i definitely needed it. things i learned:

• God is determined to work in and through me.  no matter how many times I tell Him that I want to do what i want and not what He wants...He refuses to give up on me.


• God's plans and my plans are complete opposites...but I end up much happier when I go with His plans.


• that i've been counting on my own strength to get me through...and that's why I can't do all the things i have to do and stay sane. =)


• that i have to stop adding to what God asks me to do. it isn't healthy and it's another reason why i feel like i can't get everything done. He doesn't want me exhausted and burnt-out all the time. "A thief is only there to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of." ~John 10:10 


• that even though my family isn't perfect...i've got it good. the kids in Lubbock go through so much...they're so empty...


• sometimes, the ways God uses me that are unexpected and seem small end up as the biggest and the most important.


• i learned just how much of a pride problem i have. i really like to be out in front of people...and i like it when things revolve around me. but it's not all about me. not even close.


• expecting and watching for miracles is the best way to see them.
  

so yeah. that's about it for vague blanket concepts. but there's a song that describes a lot about how i feel now. i've been on a sara groves trip lately...it's called "One Thing I Know"

well the clouds just parted
on a corner of my life
and i can see for miles
and the things i was stuck on
things i thought would never change
they just broke open wide

this is the one thing i know
You said You won't let me go
You said You won't let me go
You've done a good work in me
and You won't quit till i'm free

well the veil just lifted
and i can finally understand
the way You work in me
but even if i didn't
You are still a sovreign God
who has a plan for me

this is the one thing i know
You said You won't let me go
You said You won't let me go
You've done a good work in me
and You won't quit till i'm free

it's good to know
You work with hurting, broken souls
that You'll take a soul like mine
in all the world
nothing's taken hold of me...like Christ

this is the one thing
this is the only thing
You are the one thing
You are the only thing
this is the one thing I know....
~sara groves

hey everyone! i'm leaving for the Texas mission trip...today...so please pray for us! want to know about it? good.

5 am *shudder*: getting up to clean before people come. ugh.

6 am: Whitney's coming over to pick lice again...she's been at the beach all week...

9 am: hopefully we'll be done and showered and ready b/c Greg is bringing us breakfast...yum.

10-11? am: Joseph and Josh are coming over to work on a song to sing in Texas. then we'll eat...spaghetti.

12:45 pm: going over to the church to leave.

2 pm: leaving! yay!

please pray for us...we'll need it!

 

 

 

 

wow i need to get some sleep first.

schedules are out! hopefully things will change some...we'll see.

First Semester:
Dance Company--Fonville
English 11 Honors--Steele
Theatre Arts A Honors--Drago
Latin 2--Keller

Second Semester:
Art 1?!?!?!--Burgess
AP Statistics--Hood
AP US History--PreudHomme
AP Envitonmental Science--Conetta

a beautiful daughter

gosh i'm excited...it's the perfect solution! i'm going to send out a monthly newsletter to my girls in War! that way, i can write them all more often and say more b/c it will be typed and double sided...much easier and more practical than writing 40-some individual letters every time. the title of it is "a beautiful daughter" and it's really cool....

i really love going to the dollar tree! we all went today and bought school supplies (i have this obsession with office supplies to it was very exciting), a new barbie dancer dress, baskets for the towels under the sink, hairbows and brushes! b/c i lice-i-fied the old ones...stickers and gift bags. we got some soap and such too.

and i did work on the drama club scrapbook today. yes, i'm only halfway done with "You Can't Get There From Here" and the "Evening of Scenes" but...it will get done eventually. and i've really got to pick up the pace on the Scarlet Letter and the AP US History work. ouch.

i talked to Ryan tonight! he's such a cool kid, and i wish he'd realize how valuable he is. we need more people like Ryan! =)

by the way, i saw "Newsies" tonight! it's just about one of the best musicals i've ever seen, ever. i mean really--the dancing is phenomenal, not to mention that both the dancing and multiple-part harmonies are being performed by fairly young guys. check it out: http://homepage.mac.com/jmar/newsies/

here are some lyrics from it...the song is called "Santa Fe"

So that's what they call a family
Mother, daughter, father, son
Guess that everything you heard about is true
So you ain't got any family
Well, who said you needed one?
Ain't ya glad nobody's waitin' up for you?

When I dream
On my own
I'm alone but I ain't lonely
For a dreamer night's the only time of day
When the city's finally sleepin'
All my thoughts begin to stray
And I'm on the train that's bound for Santa Fe
And I'm free
Like the wind
Like I'm gonna live forever
It's a feeling time can never take away
All I need's a few more dollars
And I'm outta here to stay
Dreams come true
Yes, they do
In Santa Fe

Where does it say you gotta live and die here?
Where does it say a guy can't catch a break?
Why should you only take what you're given?
Why should you spend your whole life livin'
Trapped where there ain't no future
Even at seventeen
Breakin' your back for someone else's sake
If the life don't seem to suit ya
How 'bout a change of scene?
Far from the lousy headlines
And the deadlines in between

Santa Fe
Are you there?
Do you swear you won't forget me?
If I found you would you let me come and stay?
I ain't gettin' any younger
And before my dyin' day
I want space
Not just air
Let 'em laugh in my face
I don't care
Save a place
I'll be there

So that's what they call a family
Ain't ya glad you ain't that way?
Ain't ya glad you got a dream called Santa Fe?

have i mentioned what a cool band BarlowGirl is?

haha! i hoped it would be an interesting sentence:

"Whitney had it too, so we had a lice picking party and that made it not so awful."

1. Go into your LJ's archives.
2. Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions

7 days until Texas!

i did it! my hair is officially shorter than it's ever been...and i really like it! i want to get a picture on here soon...we'll see.

me, my dad, a couple kids from the youth group, and martin's mom all went out to the scout camp that he works at last night...it was really really  cool, even if i didn't understand anything. my dad had a great time, especially since he used to go to things like that all the time. and it was neat, b/c we hardly ever do anything together, and it wasn't awkward or anything. i really need to work on getting to know my dad better.

and i cleaned the bathroom today! what fun...it actually kind of was, b/c my mom and sister were cleaning too, and being silly and listening to music. i really like alphabet soup and gilmore girls. quite a nice combination to round out the day, actually.

i found this this morning and thought it was super cool:

"I pulled you in from all over the world, called you in from every dark corner of the earth, telling you, 'You're my servant, serving on my side. I've picked you. I haven't dropped you.' Don't panic. I'm with you. There's no need to fear for I'm your God. I'll give you strength. I'll help you. I'll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you. "Count on it: Everyone who had it in for you will end up out in the cold--real losers. Those who worked against you will end up empty-handed--nothing to show for their lives. When you go out looking for your old adversaries you won't find them--not a trace of your old enemies, not even a memory. That's right. Because I, your God, have a firm grip on you and I'm not letting go. I'm telling you, 'Don't panic. I'm right here to help you.'"
~isaiah 41:9-13

on to ap us history homework...ewww....=)